Break Up with Silas/Autism Evaluation

Sorry I haven't updated in so long.  I'll make it up to you, I have several posts planned for this weekend.  Quite a bit going on with me.  Silas and I broke up.  My Grandmother broke her face.  I'm being evaluated for autism.  I've been dating a bit.  My class is going well.

Silas and I broke up.  He said that he could no longer handle the annoyances, insanity and talk about other men.  And Voloyda.  I understand that I'm annoying.  I understand that I'm not totally sane.  I understand Voloyda.  Not really sure I understand the talking about other men, Silas did agree to an open relationship and I never actually went out with anyone else.  We're still friendly though, let's hope he doesn't turn crazy like Voloyda did.  And while we're talking about Voloyda, Silas and I broke up and I told Dima who then told Voloyda who then sent Silas some semi threatening messages including:

• I just got an interesting text from my brother.  I told you not to hurt her.  What the fuck man?  I am NOT pleased.
• Fucking Tosser.
• Hanging out with your girl you stupid, stupid man.
• If she has another breakdown and winds up in the hospital because of you, you had best believe she won't be the only one in there.
• Bout to sleep with your girl brother.

For the record: I didn't have a breakdown.  And I most definitely did not sleep with Voloyda.

My grandmother fell at her house and totally bashed her face up.  It was horrible: black eyes, non-stop nosebleeds, bruises all over.  She didn't want to be home alone so I ended up staying over at her house with her for a couple days.  And after I left she got another really bad nosebleed and had to go back to hospital.  And then she ended up staying at my aunts' for two weeks.  She's back home now though.

I am being evaluated for whether I have an autism spectrum disorder.  I had my evaluation appointments and now just waiting for the results.  It was basically just two, two hour appointments where they asked me a bunch of questions about my habits.  And there were several packets to fill out.  My mother filled out an Asperger's checklist for me; out of seventy-five questions only four weren't checked and those were things like 'responds to name' and 'can count to ten.'  We shall see how it goes.  I find out the 31st.

Since Silas broke up with me, I've been dating a bit.  I went on a date with this one guy but it didn't really work out.  I'm talking to this other guy.  We've been on a couple of dates and have another scheduled for this Friday.

School is going really well.  I've done really well on my last few papers.  Especially the last one I wrote.  The topic was: Is life worth living and why I am alive.  I got a 100% and the comment that I am a 'brilliant genius.'  I really enjoyed writing the paper and I think it gives a lot of insight about my reasons for living.  I may post it on here.

School Update/Cedar Point

I haven't updated in a while so here's everything that's been going on.

Silas and I went and got an oil change and tire rotation for my car.  Everything went fine, we paid and left, we pulled out of the parking lot and you could feel the car going THUNK, THUNK, THUNK.  We stopped.  We looked at the car.  The tire wasn't put back on correctly.  On the right front tire, two of the lug nuts were so loose you could unscrew them with your hand.  What the hell?  How do you forget to screw all the lug nuts back on?  They were visibly loose.  How do you not notice that?  So we drove back to the shop and they tightened all the lug nuts.  The manager assured us that 'this rarely happens' and gave us a couple of coupons for a free oil change.

School is going semi-well.  I really enjoy my psychology class but I absolutely loathe my sign language class.  I'm horrible at it.  I can understand the signs themselves but I can't understand the facial expressions and body language that accompany them.  I think I'm going to drop the class and take a different language course in the future.  I'd much prefer to learn Russian but they don't offer it at the school I'm attending.  I may wait until I transfer schools and see if they offer it.

Last week at school, I was just standing there playing on my phone and some guy came up and asked me if I was 'all there.'  I don't even think I was doing anything weird at the time either.  I couldn't really think of a response so I just sort of stared at him for a few seconds and then walked off, which I'm sure confirmed his suspicions that I'm not 'all there.'  How exactly are you supposed to respond to something like that?  "Are you all there?"  "I don't know, are you incredibly rude?"

Silas and I went to Cedar Point last Saturday, which while fun probably wasn't the best idea because I had a cold.  Between the crowds and noise and lines and everything I usually always have some sort of meltdown in places like that and this time was no different.  Silas left me alone so he could go on a ride I didn't want to go on and when he came back I was gone and he had to go and look for me.  He left me in a particularly crowded area and it became a bit overwhelming so I went somewhere else.  He didn't really leave me alone for the rest of the day for fear that I would wander off and he wouldn't be able to find me.  Though we each had phones so even if I had wandered off he could have just called or texted.  If he had called me, I may not have been able to hear it though because I wore earplugs the entire time.  It's far too loud without them, but I don't think it was good to wear them for the 11 hours we were there because my ears still hurt.  I did have a lot of fun though, so I guess it was worth it.

That's pretty much all that happened.  I do have a couple of conversations with Voloyda to add but I shall post those at a later date.

Better Than Last Week

I had a pretty bad time with everything last week but I'm doing much better now.  I wasn't actively suicidal but I was considering checking myself into a psychiatric facility but didn't.  My mother is trying to find me a new psychiatrist and possibly a psychologist as well.  The person I see now is not working and I need someone else before I have another psychotic break.  Other than me feeling like I'm losing my mind I'm doing okay.

I can back home last Sunday.  I'm working on getting my car repaired from the accident.  My back and neck no longer hurt.  Silas and I are doing well.  I'm looking forward to the family reunion next weekend.  And I get to get out of the house for a week by dog/cat/turtle-sitting at my aunt's starting the day after the reunion.  I'm not sure if I'm more excited for the family reunion or house-sitting at my aunt's.  I love my family but I also love my aunt's dog Titus and getting away from my parents.

The one problem (besides me losing my mind) that I have right now is that Voloyda is driving me mad.  I know he thinks he's helping, trying to get me to go after David but he's not and it's really getting on my nerves.  I could throttle him, I really, really could.  At least he hasn't told me where David is.

My step-sister and her husband and annoying children came down from Canada for the holiday weekend.  I'm not a fan of children to begin with and her children are more annoying than most.  Especially since my room is directly below the kitchen and they think jumping up and down on the floor while shrieking is an acceptable activity at 7:30 in the morning.  I am an evening person.  I stay up late and sleep in and when I've been up until 4:30 I don't want to be woken up three hours later by screeching children.

Not a Very Good Week

This week has so far been rather bad.  I've been involved in a car accident, had a complete meltdown over Silas, almost been forcibly committed into the psychiatric hospital by my therapist and, been told by my mother to get out of the house.

So on Monday when I was heading over to see Silas, there was a wicked storm going on and all the traffic lights were out.  It was totally awesome; I love thunderstorms.  So the traffic lights came back on just before I crossed the bridge.  I get to the other side and get stopped by the light and BOOM.  The lady behind me smashed right into me and I in turn hit the person in front of me.  My front bumper was totally fine as was the car in front of me but my back bumper is like fucked up.  And the car of the person who hit me was trashed.  Her hood was folded in like an accordion.  It looked bad.  No one was injured though so the police didn't come.  It didn't set in right away but I have a wicked case of Whiplash.  My neck fucking hurts.  I can't turn it to the right at all.  Oh well, I'm not overly concerned about it.  It'll heal up.

So I finally meet up with Silas and went out to eat, played Frisbee, went to his house, watched Netflix, went to my house, made some cookies, I had a meltdown.  He did something and then I got upset and then he got upset and I started crying and then he started crying.  And I got mad that he was crying.  And then we stopped crying and watched Mulan and he went home.  So that happened.

Tuesday I had therapy and my therapist said I seemed 'off' and kept asking me if I was suicidal.  I sort of am but not enough to actually kill myself or anything.  There's a difference between wanting to die and not wanting to live.  So then she called my mother and told her to keep an eye on me and make sure I didn't kill myself.

So then yesterday my mother responded to my therapist's advice to watch me by telling me I need to get out of the house.  So last night I left.

Overall not a very good week.  I just don't feel like dealing with this shit anymore.

Busy Day

I had a very busy day today.  Silas and I went and seen the midnight showing of Spiderman 2.  I didn't get home until 3am.  Then I had to get up at 8 to go to the Goodwill job fair.  I think it went well (fingers crossed, wish me luck).  My parents are leaving for Aruba tomorrow so I was helping them pack.  Then my mother and I went to my cousin Ryker's play at 7pm.  That let out at 10.  Then we had to take some of my relatives back to their houses.  I did not get a picture of Ryker in his costume but I will hopefully have one tomorrow to post on here.

I did give one of my Stalking My Ex-Boss business cards to a guy I'll call "James."  James is a manager at The Store.  He is the one who kicked me out and told me not to come back on the day I was banned.  He's dating the adoptive mother of my adopted cousin's brother (confusing, I know).

Today was very busy and exciting.  I have not had time to research earthquakes yet but will definitely do so tomorrow. 

EDIT: I'm not sure exactly when it happened but I found out 6/17 that James broke up with my cousin's brother's mother.  I also heard that he's hung and really good in bed but it's like fucking a teenager on account of him being so skinny.

Rocky Horror Preparations

Days until restraining order is lifted: 1

Today I got most of the stuff together for Rocky Horror tomorrow.  I still need to pick up a few props.  Need to get party hats, bells, noisemakers, and a newspaper.  I cannot wait until tomorrow night.  I don't know if I'm more excited about the restraining order expiring or seeing the Rocky Horror shadow-cast.  I made Silas some cue cards so he has some idea of what to say and do but I didn't tell him what they might due to him because of his "virgin" status.  That would take all the fun out of it.  It's much more fun to torture him with not knowing.  (In the Rocky Horror universe a virgin is someone who has not been to a shadow-cast before.  Often "virgins" are singled out before the show and made to do some sort of embarrassing task or allow one to be performed on them.  My first cast they made all the virgins go up on stage and crawl under the performers legs while they spanked us.)

I invited my cousin Ryker along with us but my aunt won't let him go.  Such a prude, just kidding.  You would think that she'd be okay with it, he is almost 15.  He'll be 15 in a week and a half.  And while she didn't exactly allow it, she didn't get mad or anything when Theo and I took him to see "The Hangover 2" or "Bad Teacher" or "Ted."  All or those are rated R and contain just as much nudity as Rocky Horror.  Oh well, maybe I can take him to see the next one.  Theo is coming with us though.  It should be fun. 

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Conversation with Voloyda 22

Days until restraining order is lifted: 5

I'm going to a Rocky Horror shadow cast on the 22nd and I couldn't find my Columbia costume anywhere.  I eventually asked Voloyda if he had it because the last time I went as Columbia it was with him.

O: Do you have my Columbia costume?  I can't find it anywhere.
V: I'm not sure.  I can look.  Hold on a sec.
*thirty minutes later*
V: I do have it.
V: And it looks fabulous on me.

There used to be a photo of Voloyda in his Columbia costume but he asked me to take it down.  Instead please enjoy this picture of a cat doing the time warp.

O: That it does.  You can keep it.
V: I was planning on it.
O: Nice cleavage.
V: The magic of tape.  Lots and lots of tape.  And padding on the bottom.
O: You always did make a pretty woman.
V: I am so wearing this to the show.
O: You should.  And introduce yourself to Silas as Vixie.  He's absolutely terrified of you.  Maybe he won't be so nervous if you're dressed as a woman.
V: I shall go as Vixie.
O: If you use your woman voice and don't say anything strange, he probably won't even realize you're a man.
V: I'll wait until the end of the night after he's gotten to know me to tell him who I am.
O: Sounds like a plan.

Facebook Official

Days until restraining order is lifted: 185

Silas and I are now officially dating.  It's Facebook official.  Voloyda of course saw it, pitched a fit, and threatened to stab him like he "did to Little Ivan."  Such a charming man.  So since Silas and I started going out my dad threatened to shoot him and Voloyda threatened to stab him.  He's quite resilient though, still interested anyway. 

Silas Part 2

Days until restraining order is lifted: 212

My internet has been down for a week and a half and finally got it hooked back up today.  Yay internet! 

Things are going very well between Silas and I.  Date number 7 is scheduled for Saturday. 

Third date we went bowling then back to my house for a few movies. 

Fourth date we went to the mall for a few hours then went out to eat at this awesome stir-fry place I’d never been to and then we caught a couple movies at the drive-in.  I don’t really like horror movies and we saw “The Conjuring.”  That shit was scary.  I won’t be doing that again anytime soon.  “We’re The Millers” was the subsequent movie, just as funny as it was the first time, and it helped to wipe The Conjuring from my mind.

Fifth date we went to the zoo and then chilled at his house.  He was so excited about the zoo.  He said he hadn’t been there in over three years.  That is just sad.  We watched “Dogma,” which was fucking awesome.  Alan Rickman, whoop whoop!  LOL.  “Olympus Has Fallen” and “Pirates of the Caribbean.”

Sixth date, which was yesterday, he came over for dinner and met my parents and my sister and her husband.  My dad took him out to the garage with my sister’s husband while my mother, sister and I got the kitchen together.  Silas later told me when they were in the garage my father pulled out and gun and threatened to shoot him if he hit me.  Great dad, this is why I don’t bring my dates home.  It apparently didn’t faze him too much because he ended up staying the night.  We watched “Dark Shadows,” “Tower Heist” and “Horrible Bosses.”  Well my parents are going to the theater Saturday to see “Wicked” and Silas is going to come over.  We’ll probably just hang out, maybe go out to dinner

Silas

Days until restraining order is lifted: 220

So things are going quite well with Silas.  We had our first date. We went and saw “We’re The Millers,” which was hilarious.  Our second date we went to Maumee Bay Park and walked the boardwalk for a few hours then went back to his house and watched a few movies.  Third date which is tonight we’re probably going to go bowling.  He’s a really nice guy (unlike the previous assholes I've dated) and we get along really well.