General Update - October 2016

Hi friends, there's not really been a whole lot going on so this is just a brief, very basic update.  I'm doing a little better, not a whole lot but I finally had my psychiatrist and she changed my meds.  Now that I've quit the Effexor my headaches, sweatiness and sleep problems have gone away.  So that's good.  Unfortunately my car tire fucked up again.  My dad managed to find a used one at the junkyard so it was only $50 for the replacement.  School's going okay.  Over halfway through the semester now.  I'm passing both of my classes.  Generally everything seems to be going okay.

Bad Time 2

Had a bit of an episode today.  A huge meltdown and crying fit along with some serious suicide contemplation.  I really don't think my med change is helping at all.  I don't know why I'm so miserable.  I'm doing okay in school and I don't really have anything to be that stressed out about but I always feel like I'm two seconds away from a complete breakdown.  My depression hasn't been this bad since The Incident.  I really think it's only a matter of time before I end up back in the hospital.  I think if I have another breakdown like today I'm going to have to go because I really can't handle it anymore.  I'm so miserable and unhappy.