Confused

It's been a few days since the restraining order expired and I know I should be happy and I am, sort of.  But I'm also a little sad as well.  The restraining order was such a huge part of my life over the past year.  It's what I was living for.  And now it's over and everyone else has moved on.  And I'm in the same place I was a year ago going "What the fuck am I supposed to do now?"